Author: Kel

  • Land (Poem)

    you forgot-or didn’t know-that I knew stories of that land

    the timbered barn built by hand and burned in vengeance

    the two streams that provided water and their springs

    the reasons for the midden heap and the small house that overlooked it

    I walked the boundaries every year

    over rocky embankments between barbed wire fencing

    learned about what had grown and what had not

    what might be a good idea if the weather held

    I sat in rooms warmed only by a stone hearth’s fire

    and shared hot coffee and stories with people

    whose names I do not remember

    but whose gnarled hands I still see quite clear

    I loved all of this pure and simple

    felt it settle upon me like an obligation

    care but do not own, land cannot be owned

  • The Best I Can Do (Poem)

    because I love you-how can I not

    I will once again break my heart

    offer you the pieces on my best thrift store plate

    knowing you will not notice my offer, or if you do

    disdain it as worth nothing at all

    the piled shards webbed with metallic threads

    the repairs I made beautiful over the years

    breaking it again and again to give you all I had

  • One Space But Two (Poem)

    for a time we lived in the same place

    yet inhabited different homes

    I saw walls hung rich with art

    ate meals from hand-thrown plates

    slept on a bed built with love

    you didn’t notice paintings at all

    thought pottery worthless bits of clay

    had no care for handmade things

    saddened I see this still in you

    though you place no value in what I think

    you have turned the world into your mirror

    all you see is your glittering self

    even my love could not pull your gaze

  • Return, O Child (Poem)

    travel back now to the home you left

    the home from which you were banished

    to the doors which you closed behind you

    the doors that refused you admittance

    paint the walls with your tears

    let them run with streaks of icy blue

    then throw your laughter bright upon them

    and walk away forever this time

    the doors thrown open in invitation to all

    the house finally empty of all sorrow

    leaving only your many discarded faces

  • Neverending (Poem)

    a tree grew on the banks of the bayous

    shadowed for long periods but with filtered sun

    enough to thrive and reach out over the waters

    it sheltered nutria beneath its shade

    sometimes a human would rest there

    in verdant silence undisturbed and find

    a moment of stillness would settle their mind

    the tree’s gift, drawn up from deep roots

    offered to any who drew near

    but the tree became tall and the bayou traveled

    so one day men came with saws

    the noise they made filled the air

    each cut into the bark shriller than the last

    at the end as they left, they looked back at the clearing

    stopped in their tracks by a sudden peace

  • Owl Meditation (Poem)

    a short-eared owl lives nearby

    augur of transition and wisdom

    for my reflections on walks in the field

    for itself just itself purely being an owl

    watchful for prey and predators alike

    at home for a while in these trees

    may I be as aware of the present moment

    and dwell as easily in the temporary abode

  • Maranasati (Poem)

    a vulture vigilant on the dead tree

    a lone sentinel to silent decay

    no need to call a wake upon this rotting

    all are watchmen unwitting or not

    moulder begets beauty and corpse bugs glitter

    death another step on the path

  • Electra’s Love (Poem)

    driven to the refuge of shadows

    so not to become her mother’s sacrificial prey

    another child offered to uncaring gods

    by a parent bent on insane pursuit of their own goals

    she watched as her mother danced about with gibbering glee

    and even as she shouted in her madness

    words that jangled with sharp strident barbs

    and waved her anger hotter than any blazing branch

    Electra loved her, even as she wept in fear

  • Klytemnestra In Old Age (Poem)

    her features sharpened to a knife’s edge

    her voice given over to vinegar’s bite

    her gaze still meets like the first freeze of autumn

    she has no more reasons for softness’ pretense

    the falseness of honeyed concern

    once again she is free from usual constraint

    keep close watch and take heed

    else she might burn the house down around her

    again, and as before laugh at the devastation

    do you care if your children scream in the flames

  • How I Came To Study With Rebbe Z (Poem)

    three times I came to his door, three times

    knocked and knocked until he answered

    the first I brought nothing but a quiet entreaty

    he turned me away with a shake of his head

    the gray skies of autumn and a colding wind

    made me shiver as I walked home

    the second I offered familial connections

    he paused in memory before refusing again

    the creak of the ship with its salt-sodden chambers

    surrounded me briefly as I stood on his sill

    the third I came armed with words that surprised him

    keys to a knowledge I should not have known

    reluctant but intrigued, he invited me in

    a cup of tea, and thus we began,

    thus we began, my teacher and I