How to mourn you?
Only with detachment can I find room
For kindness and compassion towards you.
You struggled just as all do,
And I wish to think you did your best.
Some of your actions and words still linger with gray-tinged hurt,
But now I can feel sorrow over these rather than resentment.
When I speak at your service,
I will recount one of the few memories I have
That cast you in your best light.
May you find in this death peace from suffering,
An end to chasing illusory dreams, and the fade of your red anger.
I laid down the burden of these long ago.
Now may you do the same.