I am grateful for all I encounter in this life
But I bow in most gratitude to the difficulties.
Like stumbling upon a rock on a path,
They cause me to stop and pay attention.
Look, they say. Open your eyes and see what is here.
Then I remember to do so.
Oh, my walk is like this now?
I smile, breathe, and continue on.
Let me go for a walk. How do I begin?
By starting from where I am.
I put one foot in front of the other.
Over and over and over.
I alone can do this.
I cannot ask: Would you move for me?
(I could, but this is nonsensical.)
If I want to trek to whatever destination,
I must commence.
Now is the only time;
These steps are the perfect means.
I embark upon the journey.
I didn’t jump, but I remember
The long walk to the edge.
Each step felt like a promise;
Each breath felt like a scream.
The relentless drum beat
Counting down my life
Had as its message:
Today; today; today.
I stood there and listened,
As I looked at the rocks far below.
Then I turned and began the journey back.
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