if the body remembers, then mine holds close

stories of how to die and return

to return and die again and again

such were my first three months and beyond

thus it has remained

currently I have fever cough pain

three months now off and on again and again

no comforting touch nor sheltering box

only finally the knowledge that I am not unique

that everyone is always in a transitional state

I wrap this understanding around me

a calming weight to ease my intemperate mind

and rest